Spent today with my family, which is a rare occurrence for me. I was thinking about who I have for role models in my life, and when I thought of this, I realized that there is few people in my family that I would consider a role model. To be honest, there is really only one person that I would consider to be one, that person is my dad.

up until recently my dad was one of the closest people to me. I could talk to him about almost anything. We share similar interests, both very active, hard workers, strong willed and very determined. But also we have some other personality traits that are not so positive, like our temper. Both of us can explode about something very small, and insignificant.

I've been training in karate for about 10 years now. recently, i was losing my motivation to train, but my dad convinced me to keep with it and i was getting back into the training mode again. but then we had a fight, and since then it hasnt been the same. i want to train again, because when i do i feel like nothing can break my spirit, and that i am unstoppable. but i feel that our relationship is so fragile now i dont want to break what has been built back up again, so i feel awkward about wanting to training with him. i regret everyday the words that i said to him, and wish i could take them back, but i can't. those words that i said are now a scar in our relationship, and im afraid that it wont ever be how it was again.